Exam result

Finally I got my result
and
21st of January 2008 start to become the most Terrible day in my life
I'm little happy when I saw my Biology not so bad and meeting friends is nice too
but when I look at the other two
feel like want to die

You know what bad I feel
Start to think what my mon gonna to do with me if she saw this kind of result
and the result show that I'm right
I mom wasn't so happy with it
and
my dad
I think he actually disappointed but he refuse to show it so that my feeling whouldn't be worst
Thank dad

but
althought my result not so good
I can still get into what I want to study
so...............
is time for me to do registration


Here is the problem
how I go
I don't even how to reach there by car or public transport

AND
I did call to ask what should I bring
But
I forgot to ask about the registration fee problem..........

what a damn!!!!!


The most serious is
my best friend say that she don't think I'm suitable to study what I want to study
she say I most suit to marry and stay at home to grow up my kid............
and it really really hurt me

This is not what I want
of course if other people say so I may don't have any reaction
but she is my best
how could she said that to me.............and not giving any suggestion
haiz................


anyway
I decide to clear up my mind and continue what I want to do
so
Please bless me and support me
my heart is really weak..........don't stimulate me anymore

mumbling from mom

Where are you now?
that's what my friend ask me through phone
I can answer that
I'm now at my dad office,just finish file-ing document that I know where to put
but I still left a lot
I didn't mean not to or.........
but I had been long time didn't step into the office
and all the file had changed
I don't even knew my dad changed his room to the other .........nearly get into the wrong room
haiz.................
The reason why I'm here is easy
because
my mom ask me to
aND
that's is no way for me to make objection
so
I'm here


But
poor little me still got the right to make so noise such as complain
right?
first
when I try to wake up today
my mom is mumbling about me
this is what she say
still don't want to wake up.........what's the time now
everyone already wake up except you
now you cannot wake up,next time if you working then how................
those are what I remember

and now
let me explain

the reason why I couldn't wake up at 8 something morning
is because,I'm holiday-ing.......................no young people wake up so early in holiday
if you are,please pretend you don't..........
and I wake up at 6 something morning when I need to go to school,isn't it is early for a college student...........
and I don't think 8 something morning is late
it do consider early for most of the holidaying people.....right?
right!!!!

The second reason why everyone wake up so early and I sleep until 'so late'
is because
I'm holiday-ing
and THEY ARE NOT
they got to work and school
they got to wake up early than me to prepare and go to work and school
and I'm holiday-ing

And the last
mom
you don't have to remind about how early I have to wake up if I'm working
I know about...........
and don't worry
I think I can make it when I really got to


Well
I believe this kind of situation always happened on me and you
most of us pass through this process and grow up and coninue your life without mummy mumbling later

and I may going to cross it
if I study too for from home

that time
no one going to mumbling
no more rules
no more caring from family when you are sick or down
like you missing some important part in your life

Of course at first I sure will be full of excitement...............
but later I'll start to miss home...............

so
even now I feel that my mom mumbling is annoying
but still.............I will let it be
who know
you gonna to miss that in future

choice

maybe holiday too boring...........
or maybe I'm too lazy during the holiday..........
the amount that I wrote for blog in holiday less than normal day
too lazy............I guess............

Well
I can explain
my holiday really kind of boring
not much to mention too

That's why now I deeply hope can start school now.........
life getting boring


But
I still feel comfuse on choosing which major course
I got two choices now
which to choose?

One had became my dream since I was a kid
but it take longer time to finish study and hardly to have a career in Malaysia

Another one is my secong choice
it start to bothering me because an car accident plus persuade from my friend
it seen will be more easy for my future if I study this,my career is guarantee
but...............kind of too challenging for me
all I want is just simple life not that challenging...............

difficult isn't?
which to choose
my dream or reality?

Life really made up by a lot of choice..........right
if you were me
which will you choose?